December 2020 – January 2021 | My blog has become an area of paralysis in my life because I just don’t have the time and energy to breath life into it. I have hundreds of pictures of moments that have since past with no words to infuse the story. And I’m surrendering in hopes that the images themselves can do that for me. Accepting that I’ll never have the time and energy to give all I know it deserves but that perfection cannot be my goal. That it’s the perfection that’s paralyzing, not this space.
And so, this is how we rung in the new year. A year that, on the heels of my divorce, I had been waiting for; the year that was supposed to laugh in the face of all the hardships from the year that preceded it. And yet, it’s been anything but for so many of us.
We hit up every skate park we could find, crossing the bridge over to Berkley and Oakland, as well as to Marin. We frequented Ocean Beach, skated down Mission Street, caught sunset at Twin Peaks, visited the painted ladies, took a boat over to Alcatraz, explored the Surto Baths, took the BART into downtown… all the things I can remember loving about living there with some tailored-to-them tourist excursions for good measure.
Knowing that we came here when Hooper and Van were little (it was actually our first road trip with them!), I got sucked into the vortex of watching this old video and scrolling through these old pictures. These memories don’t make me sad, I’m trying to tap into why; thinking it’s because I question if any of it was ever authentic to begin with. In any event, I can see the hump in my back, which tells me it was prior to having 2 rods and 27 screws hammered into my spine to fuse 13 levels (due to scoliosis). It’s also nice to see how far I’ve come with photography. And cool to see that I’ve been writing here for over 7 years now…
We had other plans for the summer, as I’m sure several have, but in lieu of the pandemic and in keeping with what we can do while social distancing and avoiding airplanes, we’re headed back to Bay. To make more memories. And visit more skateparks.
